With much love , XOXO

Wow .

2011-12-05T13:57:00.001+08:00

I don't even know where to begin with .

It had been like what .. almost 6 months since I'd been on this job ? And I haven't update any post this entire time .

I'm currently typing this on my iPad cos things had been going slow lately since it's close to the year end .

Omg I still cannot believe it's Dec already .

Anyway , my job is okay ..... Though a lot of times I still think if I'm meant for greater stuffs . I don't really want to be stuck to this for the rest of my life but I know this looks great on my resume .

I love most of the people here but like any other job , there will always be an asshole that everybody hates ! As much as I WANT to put all the negative shit elsewhere already , it (or he) still continues to haunt me during my office hours . Sighs . Some times I feel like I have it in me to take a knife and stab the asshole repeatedly to vent all my anger and frustration . But it's not gonna happen cos I'm better than that and I am in control .

Okay despite all the shit the fucker continues to do to terrorize my tablemate and I , I'm gonna be an angel and let it all go because it's not worth it .

Then again , if I were to get thrown under the bus a few more times I might just crack . I mean I'm gonna bring out the bitch in me .

Okay past all these , I'd found some really awesome people and I'm thankful for having more good people in my life than people from the evil side .

But eventually , it's about the job . A part of me tells me I NEED to do this but somewhere inside my complicated system of thoughts and feelings , I don't really want to do this ....

All I wanna do is get married and have two adorable kids and live happily ever after - not gonna happen any time soon .

SIGHS .

Everyday is a battle .

Everyday I wish I'm elsewhere doing something else or living someone else's life .

Bad . But I'm only 21 ! I should be doing crazy things , exploring life in a different and more meaningful way . I don't want to rot my life away in a boring office cubicle and just grow fatter sitting on the office chair everyday .

I want to go live in other countries , go for a hiking trip , do a bungee jump or go diving in the deep blue seas and so many other stuffs !

Again , not gonna happen .

Because I'm too afraid to leave my 'comfort' zone and too scared to even think of swimming in the ocean .

Well but I really want to be doing so many other things .

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Okay I just got back from lunch and am in a better mood . Food makes me happy which is the result why I'm so fat . It's always a vicious cycle - unhappy = food = happy = fat = unhappy . Tsk .

I had been wanting to plan for a BBQ probably during XMas eve but I should discuss with the boy first . ( cos he'll be the one doing all the sai gang for me :') lol )

I cannot wait for my trip to langkawi even though it's just Malaysia . I just really need to go somewhere badly .

Okay tadah .

I'll see you ... probably next year :)

21st birthday - Love doesnt come in monetary form .

2011-06-26T15:14:00.005+08:00

My 21st birthday just passed two days ago and I wouldn't say I had a blast . It was nothing I imagined , there were no crazy celebrations nor events . In fact it was quite sad due to some unfortunate events but miraculously I think I truly learnt one of the most important lessons in my life .

I've learnt how to be contented for everything I have . I am more than contented to have everybody I have in my life . Now I know I do not need all the expensive clothes and accessories to 'package' myself and try to be someone I'm not . I'm not more beautiful if I need all the expensive things to represent me . Beauty starts from within and I believe it . After living for 20 years, I finally know who I am deep inside and I decided to be a better person than before .

I've also learnt to differentiate between indulgence and obsession . No kind of obsession is good .

Right now if I have all the money in the world , I will donate them to people who need it more than me . Obviously I dont have the money or power but I'll try to do things to give back to the society .

I learnt a really important lesson though in the hard way (but I always learn my lessons in the hard way) and a part of me is thankful because through all the different obstacles I overcome , I grow as a person and I'm glad I'm sort of being lead onto the right way . I believe everything in life happens for a reason .

Lastly , I am really thankful towards everyone who loves me . A big thank you to everyone who wished me happy birthday and those we made my surprise party last weekend a memorable one for me . I want to thank my Mum for always being the greatest support in my life and always teaching me the right way of living . I'm also grateful to have my siblings though they may be damn irritating some times.

Lastly I am really really really thankful and glad to have Kel in my life . Even though he may not be the richest or the most intelligent man who ever walked the earth , he probably got one of the best heart and that to me is the most precious gift of all . So thank you baby for being by my side through all the ups and downs (especially the downs) and for everything you did for me (really everything , you know it). I dont know what else I can say because words cannot describe how I really feel.

I will upload pictures of my surprise party last week when dear Cheng is back from her Tokyo trip ! *Envious*

Anyway I am starting work tomorrow and I am nervous like hell ! For now , I just want to put everything behind me (at least for the rest of today) and enjoy the last few precious hours of the unemployed life .

XOXO ,

21-year-old me .

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2011-05-28T00:51:00.002+08:00

Feeling damn fucked up though I should really be happy because it's my last day of school .

Some times I think I'm damn pathetic because I have no one I can talk to when I'm freaking upset . When the only person who sort of understands me pisses me off , who do I talk to ?

I dont fucking understand . Please stop acting like a girl and stop driving me crazy .

Love

2011-05-19T01:35:00.001+08:00

Happy 34 Months ! <3

Thank you for being a wonderful boyfriend . I really appreciate all the love and support you constantly give me especially when I'm stressed out over school and all other stuffs . (Although some times you can be annoying as hell too . Haha) I also love all the long talks we had and all the time we spent together doing nothing at all. Please be as sweet and doting towards me for as long as I'm with you .

Happy anniversary and I love you ! :)

XOXOXOXO .

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2011-05-15T03:24:00.002+08:00

Some times I really wonder if I'm asking too much when all I really want is a piece of work that you can tell has reasonable effort put into it.

I had been asking myself repeatedly these days if I am a perfectionist and I always conclude at no.

I am definitely not a perfectionist and will never be even in a hundred years.

I do not understand why settle for less when you can have more .

Some times I really hope people can really take criticism better instead of shutting down just because they hear or see things that do not please them .

Are friends really friends when they cannot be happy for you just because you did better ?

I always have jealousy issues when people have things I want but do not have but I never knew where to draw the line . Sighs the world is a cruel bitch .

I think I have a really complex nature to the extent I cannot even figure out what the hell do I REALLY REALLY want . One thing for sure , I want to stop thinking !

Peace tonight ? X .

Fingers Crossed

2011-05-12T09:02:00.001+08:00

I'd been awake since 7am plus and cannot get back to sleep anymore ! Fml very much because I got school later and I predict I'll be really sleepy ...

Anyway I'd been starting to send out my resume for job application since yesterday and all I can say is hopefully I will get a good one ! *cross fingers*

At the very least , I kinda know what I want to do as of now . I want to join a marketing agency and hopefully do either events or new media advertising . I do not mind doing CRM marketing as well but there are no job openings for fresh graduates :(

Okay , just wish me tons of luck ! :)

Well , one thing I really must say is that I should really get started on my final projects and reports ! =/

I really really love procrastinating so much . sometimes I really think I can never get things done . However , I work EXTREMELY well under a lot of pressure and stress ! In fact , I only start to work only when I feel the sense of urgency which is always last minute but I must really emphasize again that I work REALLY well under pressure .

I'm working on it to be as efficient without having to leave all the work to be completed at the last minute .

Alright . I'm freaking hungry and I'm gonna eat some cereals now !

TONS OF LUCK ! XOXO .

Updates

2011-05-04T18:43:00.008+08:00

Random Friday night at Farm :

Food at home :

One day , Mum suddenly decided we are not getting enough vegetable in our diet so we are including a lot of garden salad in our meals now .

I kinda love them because there are so many different flavors and they are really simple to prepare !

Ham & Cheese !

Tuna Mayo .

This is one of my greatest invention ever ! Haha . Fried carrot , sweet potato and potato !

Labour Day long weekend out on Mon :

We finally went out for shopping instead of midnight gaming or chilling sessions . Spent quite a lot that day but didnt manage to get my cardigan from F21 because I cannot find it anywhere :(

Dining at Skinny Pizza . Okay but we didnt order any pizza . LOL -.-

Lobster pasta . It's really not bad but I've tasted better ! :)

Camwhoring pictures again :

Okay BYE , X .

Hello holidays ?

2011-04-23T01:36:00.002+08:00

I SPENT MY GOOD FRIDAY SLEEPING !

:(

My initial plan was to go town for a good day of shopping and eating but I went Jovin's house to mj till like 6AM . MJ was great but I was freaking tired ! I barely slept 3 hours the previous night and was up since since 6AM on Thursday morning .

Went to Nex in the evening with Mum , Sis , Big Bro and Kel for dinner at Paradise Inn . I think the food is slightly above average only but the price is rocket high considering the food portion are all really small . It's weird how I always like to search for good food because one of the NICEST food is easily available below my house .

Okay I'm hungry AGAIN . I AM REALLY ALWAYS HUNGRY but the thing is I hate to settle for disgusting average food . I'm really hard to please when it comes to food .

Gotta wake up early tomorrow for an interview for a school project . Hopefully it'll be good because even I'm sick of complaining how much I hate meeting new people .

Okay gonna watch an online show with Kel now and hopefully he brings me out shopping on Sun :)

XX . Goodnight .

Photos again ?!

2011-04-15T14:57:00.005+08:00

Photos taken yesterday . I am so efficient ! Had a really tiring day yesterday cos I woke up at 6 AM plus to accompany Mum to Town for her routine health check then to farm , to school , to farm , to Bedok , to Punggol , to AMK , to Yew Tee , then finally back home ! Phew .

I think I spent more than half of yesterday driving . FML .

And taking photos . FYL . That's all you're gonna see . Haha .

Photos taken by the front camera . Sucky resolution . Pictures only turn out great when taken in the day with sufficient light .

Was early for school , would have taken more photos if it didn't start raining . LOL

At farm waiting for ANTM to load on YouTube . LOL .

Aiya I'm really bored k . My life is so boring :(

I didn't go for team meeting in school today cos I woke up feeling really terrible and I cannot decide if I wanna go to school later . Sighs . 7 to 10 PM class on a Friday night is unbelievably tolerable on other days but just not today .

I never really had places to go on Friday nights so it was okay for me usually but I just feel like crap today and I wanna go out and have some fun . However if there's really nothing interesting enough , I'll just resign to fate and drag my lazy ass to school :(

Okay gonna find other things to bore myself to death . Bye .

Recent Photos from iPhone 4

2011-04-11T03:35:00.003+08:00

Nowadays I largely depend on my phone to take photos because it's really instant , I always upload them directly to FB immediately . It's free from all the hassle of transferring photos to laptop and etc etc . Furthermore I have tons of apps to add special effects to my photos . Haha . I wish they have photoshop though so I can 'slim down' . LOL !

Anyway I'm posting some of the nicest photos here because the other time I went to exchange my phone I didn't backup everything so I lost all my older photos :( Thankfully some of the most precious one are on FB .

Attending Kel's ex-colleague's wedding dinner :

That was the FIRST time I went to a wedding dinner with Kel though we'd been together for almost 3 years . I'm not a believer of wedding dinners , in fact I kind of hate them . I think wedding dinners are pretentious and lacks sincerity ?

Seriously of all the wedding dinners I'd been to , I never personally knew the person except for their names and a little of their family background ?

I don't understand why do people invite everyone whom they barely knew to their most special occasion . I always thought it was the people closest to you who makes the difference, no ?

Yes of course you can invite everyone but think again , if most of the everyone you barely knew weren't there would you be less happy ? NO RIGHT .

I always thought weddings should be made private then shared to the whole world about the joyous, blissful moments through photos and videos . It's much more of a enjoyment to be surrounded by loved ones who genuinely feel happy for you than having the headache of thinking who to invite , finding out their addresses then mailing out invitation cards etc etc . People getting married should not only feel happy on the day itself , the entire process must be as happy right ?

Another real reason I don't like weddings - many of them are not true . I've seen SO MANY cases of guy/girl cheating prior to marriage and continues to cheat after marriage . I DON'T GET IT . Want to cheat then don't get married right ?! WTF . It's your problem that you want to self-destruct but don't destroy the life of the poor guy/girl who loves you ... and your future child ...? I don't really care if you're single/unwed that you want to fool around but marriage is like a commitment to the other half that shouldn't be taken lightly of .

People like to easily pass remarks like "Get a divorce la!" But even getting a divorce is not easy because of the extensive time and money .... and what about the kids ?

There are also so many cases of people marrying for money , fame etc etc . But it's still not as bad as cheating .

Anyway please don't tell me that you invite all the people out of respect or traditions or bullshit like that . Then what about sex before marriage or being filial to your grandparents or even giving up your freaking MRT seat to someone older !

I always get pissed off when I talk about this topic . Sighs . Seen too much , heard too much , thought too much .

(My initial plan was to upload the photos , type in a little bit of caption then go to sleep because I have 10 hours of school tomorrow but I have so much to say about the wedding stuffs . It's 4.15am now , FML .)

Attending a secondary school's classmate's 21st party :

This picture above is before special effects . LOL

After ! I think it looks better on the phone , dont know why .

The photos above were taken below Lewis's house because I was there to pick Cheng up before going to town then to Capella .

In the resort's toilet . The setting is amazing and the light is fantastic for cam-whoring !

That was the 2nd time I wore a dress in years ?! Okay la , maybe months . LOL . I always wear shorts because I think I look too much when I dress up -.- Especially since I seldom visit places that require me to dress more presentably .

I wish Singapore has the Taiwan/Japan/Korea culture where everyone just dresses up nicely no matter where they go or what they do because I'd love to dress up , but in Singapore ? People only wear chioer clothes when they go clubbing (which I don't do for a long time already) .

2nd best excuse to not dress up - I'm fat so even the chioest clothes looks ugly on me anyway . FMLverymuch .

Capella was gorgeous and I had a great time catching up with the people who made a huge difference in my life back then . I grew out of touch because I chose to embark on a different journey from the most of them but I'm really glad they are still the most genuine people in my life whom I can just sit back and talk random talks with and not feel the pressure to prove anything to them .

Okay it'd been a long wordy post . The photos which I think are the nicest (by which I mean I look chioest in) are usually on my FB . Anyway other than my own photos , I have nothing more interesting to share . FMLverymuch again . What to do , I'm a boring student with no money and stuck in a really boring Singapore :(

Okay I need to get some sleep now but I'm hungry ..... Zzz .

Till next time , XX .

10 April 2011

2011-04-10T21:32:00.006+08:00

It'd been SO long since I last updated my blog I forgot the password and had to reset it . Haha . I don't know why I stopped updating .. probably because everyone else's blog is much more interesting than mine ? Then again , I think I have a rather miserable life and I am not too much of a reveal-everything person.

I think this year is gonna be a biggie year for me and it'll definitely be life-changing . Well , I'm turning 21 soon ... I have a birthday wish which is to go abroad to live for a few months but it's unrealistic :( But still , a birthday wish is a birthday wish ! I'm happy at least I have a wish cos I'd been .. errrr lost ? -.-

Okay secondly I'm gonna graduate real soon , too soon actually . Sometimes when I think about it I get nervous ? Since I'm like one of the first of my peers to step into the working world , I really have no clue ? Seriously one thing for sure is that I'd always hated work , any kind of work . I can never commit to sleeping and waking early and I'm always late , unmotivated and unfocused . Sighs :(

It's a Sunday today but I still got so much school work to do . I'd been actually quite busy since the start of this semester but surprisingly I'd been rather responsible with my deadlines and projects etc . I wish I have this kind of attitude during my secondary school days then maybe my entire life would be more much rewarding and fulfilling .

The two most presentable photos of Kel and I recently . I haven't been taking too many photos cos I'm so lazy ! I haven't even used my camera for months . Haha . Anyway Kel and I are good and trying to get better these days . We're both working towards a life we both want, taking baby steps still but at least we're no longer going nowhere ? Ha .

Lastly I'm glad that my best friend is no longer working ! LOL . It is good to be spending more time together :)

Okay I gotta do my work already . Hopefully I'll keep up with good posts in the near future :)

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2010-11-12T00:45:00.001+08:00

I just really need someone to assure me that everything is gonna be fine then maybe I'll have the strength to carry on ...

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2010-11-12T00:04:00.001+08:00

该结束了吧。我累了。我真的累了。

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2010-10-27T19:41:00.000+08:00

Fucking fed up with EVERY single fucking thing .

Zzzz .

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2010-10-21T03:05:00.001+08:00

I really do not want to live my life this way . I have so many things I want and I can only say I had been living in regrets on a daily basis .

I have not actually have been slim or anywhere close to it .

I have not wore the clothes/shoes I only can imagine myself wearing .

I have not received a decent bouquet of flowers EVER though I am not really a fan of it .

I have not been on a holiday trip with the love one .

I have not been able to live one day without wishing I was someone else .

I have not find out my purpose in life, it should not be study , work , get married and have kids .

I have not have any hobbies or good habits .

I have not been proud of myself , of the things I do and not do .

I have not tried hard enough to become who I really can be .

I have not been able to live past my past because I want to believe that remembering the past makes me stronger .

I have not been able to let go of all the hurt and anger .

I have not been able to trust .

I have not been happy .. at all .

I have not been able to believe that the good will come .

I have not really figure out who I am inside .

I have not have anyone I can talk to about everything and anything .

I have not told most people of my darkest secrets .

I have not been able to sleep well at night .

I have not had the best-day-of-my-life feeling .

I have not have so many things I wanted and prayed for .

I have not have a miracle in my life .

I believe I will never be happy , never have the things I wanted most , never be able to live the life I want and never have my one wish fulfilled .

I would trade anything at all for my wish to come true but deep down I know it never will yet that is the only thing keeping me alive . I cannot remember when was the last time I ever went to bed without hoping that by the next day I wake up , my wish would finally come true and how it never did .

I really do not want to live another day of this and no , I am not suicidal . I do not have the guts . I just want this to stop . I don't know how but I just want this to stop .

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2010-10-21T02:18:00.001+08:00

I do not want to destroy you but I'm killing myself .

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2010-10-21T02:17:00.001+08:00

可以孤单一辈子吗？
已经不痛了但是不懂怎么面对。

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2010-10-08T00:39:00.001+08:00

why am I forever hungry and FAT ? ;(

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2010-10-07T06:08:00.001+08:00

I blogged baby !! :):):):)

2010

2010-09-18T02:12:00.001+08:00

2010 had been a different year .. I THINK .

For starters, I graduated from poly and enrolled into university . Well I do not think I made any new friends though . Hahaha but that is just how I am like .. pretty much anti-social .

Anyway I am blogging because I have nothing better to do ! I love having time alone to myself from time to time .

Okay there had been pretty much significant stuffs that happened in 2010 such as getting my car license ! Lol . I could still recall the state of euphoria back then .

Other than that , I had many fantastic purchases and I cannot decide which is my best buy ! My LV, Prada, Gucci, Dkny or my new clothing/shoe collection ! However I would like to dedicated my best buy of this month to my iPhone4 ! Omg I really cannot stop raving about how good it is ! Seriously I think anyone who owns an iPhone4 would never get back to the previous models ! ( Kel got the same phone by the way ^^ )

By the end of this year I really do hope a car would be added to my best buy list .. Sighs but I believe it would only come true next year . WELL . What can I do ? I am not exactly born with a silver spoon :( I do not get allowance on the things I splurge on .

Okay right now I think I am going to find any better applications for blogger ! For the next few days or weeks I would probably be preoccupied with tests and projects :(

I guess that is all for now !

:)

肥菜

2010-09-14T18:54:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I wonder how can Kel stand his life because I always force him to sleep very late so he only have like very little sleep EVERY night .

Whenever I have like insufficient sleep I will be super bad tempered and simply frustrated at EVERYTHING !

Furthermore he has to work mon to sat and has soccer on sun morning which means he NEVER really gets to sleep . Imagine working 9 to 6 job with insufficient sleep I'll be damn fucked up . Like seriously , I can hardly endure 3 hours of school with any less than 10 hours of sleep .

Ultimate sad life he has seriously .. Hahaha . Okay abrupt end to this post . Lol .

Kthxbye . iPhone4 ! iPhone4 ! ^^

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2010-09-10T03:55:00.001+08:00

This simply shows how much you dont know about me .. and it is hurtful .

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2010-08-12T15:39:00.004+08:00

I only have school on Tues and Fri this week thanks to the public holiday .. but I'm not especially happy or whatever though I got to spend another full day with Kel .

Sighs I'm just so freaking bored I can hardly explain . I want to revamp my room (I had been procrastinating about it) so I'll probably go down to Ikea later . It's later so I have nothing much to do now . I woke up at around 12.30 PM today feeling ridiculously angry with myself for not sleeping longer -.- I can no longer sleep till late afternoon recently , Zz .

I think it'll be better if I school though I'm not looking forward to the projects coming my way . Oh god life's full of ironies :(

I think I need to hold a job to occupy my obviously very free lifestyle now . I am really envious of people who have a goal in life .. when will I find my goal ?

So , any jobs to recommend ?

Edward is love

2010-08-06T10:25:00.001+08:00

It's a good morning for me though no particular reason why . I am awake earlier than I should be , so much earlier in fact and I have nothing to do .

School had been good so far and hopefully it gets better but I doubt so with all the projects coming up ...

I'm super addicted to twilight now . I know I'm like super slow wtf . I got only interested when people started telling me I look like Veronica / Rosalie in the movies . WTF also . Hahaha . I'm pretty sure I can watch the movies all over again and maybe again . Lol . I'm hoping I can download the movies into my phone -.- I'm not done reading the books .. And yes , I have all four of them lying around the house for few months and I only decided to read them now .

Okay maybe I'll go read or something now :)

And I love my boyfriend . Hehe (barbie voice)

Another sleepless night

2010-07-29T01:51:00.002+08:00

I'm just feeling really upset now so I cannot sleep .

I dont know is it me just being hyper sensitive or having bad moods swings . A lot of times it is just SO MUCH easier to think negatively than believing there is something good in life .

There is really just a few doubts that I havent quite yet figure out and I cannot think of any perfect reasons for them . I cannot understand why any human can just 'conveniently' forget about things that are of significant value . Then again I do not have the courage to ask because I fear disappointments .

Right now , I dont want to sleep but I have no idea what to do either ..

Another episode

2010-07-27T19:33:00.003+08:00

I'm currently watching the sunset from my room , amazing right . I guess I forgot to take some time off the hectic lifestyle to appreciate the simplest form of life .

Well anyway I went to school with Minami today to do up our student pass etc . And my timetable is FABULOUS because I only need to go school on Mon , Tues AND Fri !! Oh I love school :) Hehehe .

I'd been doing A LOT of shopping lately but it's not enough ! I still have so much more things I want and need . Why aint I born with a silver spoon ? :( :(

THANKS BOYFRIEND !! :)

I'm gonna get tons of sleep and rest before school starts cos I'm having the worst case of dark eye rings in my life EVER . I didn't even have eye bags despite all the night life previously . OMG I must be getting old ! I'm gonna force myself the hibernate as much as possible . LOL .

Hahaha k BYE , XOXO

Post Work

2010-07-26T14:32:00.003+08:00

It had really been the LONGEST time since I last visited this page . Most of the times I'd just been too busy and now I'd been quite used to talking to Kel rather than typing words on a screen .

I'd finally stopped working and have no obligations till like next week when school officially starts . However I don't feel like I have all the time in the world or especially elated , in fact I'm kinda upset like I'm missing something . I didn't realise until now that I'm gonna miss some wonderful people whom I worked with . Then again , I glad I'm no longer stuck in a nasty place .. but I'm gonna miss seeing all the animals and GOLDEN RETRIEVERS !! OMG :(

SIGHS . K now I have no mood to blog anymore . Thanks bye .

2010-05-13T14:58:00.001+08:00

OMG I'd known Chengz for 8 years already !!!!

Okay I got nothing else to blog about . -.-

Fuck this space seriously .

Random

2010-04-21T02:49:00.001+08:00

I blog like once a month and every post is pretty much random crap -.-

I'm just too freaking lazy for my own good and as much as I want to change , I'm too lazy . WTF really . Lol .

I'm practically bored to tears everyday considering my bf and the best friend are working . I want a job but I'm too spoilt . I wouldn't settle for just anything . Seriously I think I piss myself off more than anyone else . Zzz . Argh .

I need a more fulfilling life than this .

Okay very seriously , who wants to hire me ?

....

Anyway April had been quite a fantastic month because I got my driving license and I just bought a new LV bag ! I also got to spend more time with Cheng , Lewis and Kel :) However , I should cut down on drinking with Kel's friends every weekend .

Actually the reason I'm blogging now is because I cannot freaking fall asleep and I'm feeling rather crappy because my eyes are swollen , zzz .

I would also be going for a surgery this coming Thurs .. to become prettier . Hahaha ! Well I had this lump growing under my chin for few months now and only recently I'd decided to do something about it because I'm just so freaking lazy ! I haven't really been quite bothered by it untill I realised every time I smile I'll look like I have double chin from my right view and it gets me frustrated ! On thurs the surgeons better do a good job sucking/cutting the fucker out and stitch me up nicely .

Lol okay I'll blog more when I have more sleepless nights !

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2010-03-21T09:53:00.001+08:00

I love to procrastinate too much .

Want to see Genting Photos ? Click here .

2010-03-10T18:48:00.002+08:00

I suddenly feel like blogging and changing my ridiculous looking blog skin .

I just got back from Genting and I'm feeling super sick despite sleeping my well through the coach ride back and the whole of today . ZZ .

The trip was super tiring and my body is aching badly . Still , I had fun but I dont think I'll be going back to Genting in few years unless I'm going there to gamble . HAHAHA . I finally stepped into a casino for the first time and made me realised I dont know how to play most of the games except blackjack and texas poker . HAHA -.-

I dont know why I'm feeling soooooooo sick ! Argh . Thankfully Kel went with me otherwise I'll probably die there . LOL -.-

Anyway soon , I'll be applying for Uni and in a few months' time I'll be attending school again . For now , I really dont know what I'll be doing .

I want to eat steamboat ! Had been craving for it for the longest time .

Okay I think I'd crapped enough and I'll upload photos after editing them .

New month

2010-02-01T05:03:00.004+08:00

It's probably the weirdest time to be blogging at 5 AM considering I have projects I need to complete .. but then again , I feel I'd accomplished enough for today .

Havent been spending time thinking about my near future cos everything just seems so bleak and upsetting whenever I start my train of thoughts so I began blocking out anything and everything as long as it relates to me and the future .

I dont know if I deserve a life like this and I cannot seem to stop wondering a lot of "what if .." and "I could had been .."

I'd been trying to do some stuffs but I'm super unorganized and lazy :( At this rate , I'll never be who I want to be unless there's a miracle -.- but miracles dont happen to me .

Actually I really dont know what to write on this blog anymore .. I dont like to be expressive especially when I dont know who the hell reads what I writes .. and I have nothing joyous to share .

This space is boring like hell anyway . so . i . dont . care .

I read everyone else's blogs more often then I read mine (if I even remember I have one) .

It's gonna be Kel's birthday AGAIN ! Hahaha , he super detest his own birthdays . I dont know how are we gonna celebrate .. but I'd never been very particular about birthdays or other festives . Still , Kelvin .. you're seriously becoming an old man soon ! HAHA .

I just reckoned I havent post much photos of us nowadays .

Goodnight love . I will spend more time with you after I graduate which is like less in a month's time . K bye .

Sometimes I hope my dreams come true or I'd never woke up from the dream when everything was perfect .

-

2010-01-21T08:38:00.000+08:00

I haven't been updating posts for weeks and I haven't visit this space regularly ..

I have nothing much in my life to share and I'm too busy doing projects and seriously sleep deprived :(

I don't know , maybe I'll just leave this blog to die or close down soon .

The only thing I'm looking forward to now is this coming sat ! I just wanna drink and get drunk and be hangover for the whole of Sunday ! Happy birthday Cheng ! :)

I wanna go home for beauty sleep now ! Zz .

And the start of 2010 had been far from great ..

End of 2009

2009-12-31T05:06:00.003+08:00

I know I havent blogged for a long time and I had not much intentions to but it just suddenly dawned on me that it might just be my last chance to blog for the Year 2009 .

2009 was not the most fantastic year ever .. or isit that each year just gets suck-ier as you grow older ? :(

Will 2010 be better ?

2009 had been quite boring and for the past few weeks/months I'd been drinking every single week .. is there no other form of entertainment ? I just cannot help but to get so bored of EVERY thing , seriously just every little thing - My room , my phone , Facebook (That's why I deactivated it) , my blog , this and that .... including my nails ! -.- I had been changing my nail colors/designs every two days or so .

I'm getting so frustrated because I cannot understand what is wrong with me ! Sighs .

I dont even know whether a Chanel now will make me happy but an Audi / 350z can make me smile like a fool .

LOL I'd been looking at some retro Volvo cars cos they look damn nice though I dont think it really suits me . HAHAH -.-

Somehow I think I'll probably have to stick to taking cabs forever ... or at least for the next 5 years :(

Aight , goodbye 2009 . I dont think I will miss you .

-

2009-12-02T03:07:00.002+08:00

Havent blogged .

Contemplating if I should blog about road trip .. photos uploaded but yet posted .

Had been too lazy . But seriously , who else is reading this page ?

Yet another

2009-11-20T11:20:00.010+08:00

Pictures from my photobooth collection . Some recent , some not . Some with makeup , some not .

Today is a relatively good day because I accomplished quite a few things and I'm happy I did them (: Anyway I dont know if I should join my family for the road trip Fri - Mon . Z .

I slept for one hour last night . FML . I need regular sleeping hours .

Geek . LOL !!

leopard prints !! LOL

K bye .

Ps . I love talking to Jenn ! Cos she knows a lot about me and the relatives around me so I can rant alot ! (:

-

2009-11-20T11:20:00.002+08:00

I suddenly just need to admit I really admire people with a drive , a goal in life .. because I really wish I have one . Well , at least a feasible one ...

It's difficult to be motivated or do anything when I do not even know what I want .

Z .

fucked up

2009-11-18T03:32:00.002+08:00

Ever since I woke up at 11 plus today , nothing had been going smoothly , z . I only have one side of bed which I can get off so what the hell is wrong with today .

First , one cab snatcher made me waited 20 mins for the next cab . Reached school at 1.03 (Class starts at 1PM , cb teacher) . Cb cab driver dont want take 50 bucks for the 7 bucks cab fare , made me wait for the stupid nets machine . Super du lan , still must run up one flight of stairs ... finally when I reached the class and saw all strangers . Called Minami and she tell me tutorial cancelled !! KNN . I was carrying the laptop and the tutorial notes super thick !

Next tutorial starts at 4 PM and only for 2 hours .. so I cabbed home again . Luckily this time cab driver okay .. Put down my stuffs , went Town with Kel to watch 2012 (probably the only good thing .. or not . Cos after the show a part of me had been wishing the world would end in 2012 ..)

After movie , received a bad news and was raining . Went home .... and fucking a lot of random things pissing me off . And Kelvin Cai have to choose this day to piss me off as well !! CCB .

In summary , tonight is a good night to spend drinking .

-

2009-11-13T17:20:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling a little moodless because I missed school today which I didnt intend to at all . This insomnia issue is really screwing up my life and there's little I can do .. unless I want to rely on alcohol/panadols to get me to sleep every night .

I just dont get what's wrong with me .

I think it's a 14 Oct post .

2009-11-11T06:08:00.002+08:00

These are some photos I uploaded long time ago but never published them for unknown reasons . Kbox with Kel .

Just how time flies .

Randommm

2009-11-11T05:19:00.004+08:00

Fucking shit . I'm wide awake since 4 am plus and I'm unable to fall asleep again despite having a tremendous headache !!

I slept from like close to 12 am cos I was really tired out by then . Just who the fuck woke me up from the sleep ? It'd been the longest time since I had a good night sleep seriously .. And most nights that I even sleep better are the nights I infuse myself with alcohol .

Sighs . Thankfully I'm not going to school on Wed & Thurs otherwise I'll be having really terrible mood swings . I dont know why I dread gg to school so much this semester .. the hateful feeling is so intense and I feel majorly fucked up most of the times .

To hell with bad moods .

Lunar on last Sat night with Kel's soccer buddies , some whom I knew long ago . At first was really reluctant to go cos I was sleeping !! Had like 3 bottles of Chivas then morning supper before heading home ..... to play Viwawa -.-

I'd been starting to play Viwawa again but I noticed there's a sharp decline in number of players in almost every game .. and I think their rival is Facebook . LOL .

The two knockouts !

ROFL .

Kel & I . Didnt take much photos because I was looking drunk as usual .

Went to eat at Defu with Cheng & Lewis on Sunday late evening . By the time we finished our dinner was close to 11 PM -.-

Anyway it was quite an enjoyable simple evening .

Chilli crab !!

Creamy butter crab . I've eaten this for like a thousand times and I can never get sick of it !! (:

Looking at these food photos make me hungry again .. and I had only one meal yesterday .

Argh .

So now what at 6 am ?

Insomnia

2009-11-04T00:32:00.003+08:00

Havent been sleeping well since school started , zz . Hope I'll finally have a good night sleep later ..

Without my goth eyeliner . LOL . I love my usual eyeliner because it makes me look fiercer .. I think I look too kiddy without them ...

Went to Chomp Chomp with Cheng , Lewis & Kel just now then off to Selatar to chill .. :)

Recover from your sore eyes soon KCLL !!

Hungryyyyyy

2009-10-29T17:26:00.002+08:00

Woke up on a lazy and unpleasant Thurs and decided to play with photobooth .

I'm hungry .. and my boyfriend is MIA !!

Huge Sighs

2009-10-29T15:51:00.002+08:00

I think I should not be so dependent on others because I tend to feel so wrecked when being alone . I think I'll be turning into a control freak soon enough but even so , I cannot have the whole world under my spell . There are so many things in life that just wouldn't be perfect !

Sighs . I'm kinda not anticipating the new semester .. which is also the last semester . It is not because I'm fearful of how I'll do my exams or how high my GPA will ever get ... it's solely because I dont know what to do after I graduate .

One thing for sure , I will not be working some shitty low-paid jobs . I'm 100% gonna continue studying because studying is like the best thing to do .. I do not need to be the best scholar but I still have money to spend and time to slack .

The issue is , I don't know to study overseas or just stay in Singapore . For some unknown reasons , I seriously hate being in Singapore but being away for like one week can already make me homesick enough ! I have a plan though but my plan consist of people and issues which I cannot control .. and I hate it .

a solution to boredom

2009-10-24T16:56:00.002+08:00

The last two nights had been crazy . I havent tried having sleepless nights in a row ..

Kel & I met up with ZY & Cheng to Lunar and had like 8 hours long of booze and some KTV . Even though the day didn't end up quite well but I enjoyed the earlier parts of the night .

Woke up 4 plus the next day for BBQ steamboat at Marina Country Club . It was fabulous !! The food was great .. they even have exotic food like crocodile meat !! That's probably the only place I will ever go for steamboat from now on !

Went to play mahjiong afterwards with two of Kel's friends all the way at CCK cos of some unexpected turns of events . Fuck , you know where is CCK not !?!?!? LOL . Furthermore Kel lost like 100 over bucks ! -.- I thought I was supposed to be to novice .

Home alone on a Sat .. Maybe going Dbl O later cos Kel's friends are there ... Having wierd thoughts of holding a part time job .

Alright till then . Visit my FB for pictures . Doubt I'll be uploading here ..

Cousin's Wedding

2009-10-19T21:15:00.023+08:00

Blogger is seriously fucked . Not only does it take million years to load photos cos it's just max 5 at one time , it keep showing me "Bad Request" every time I am just left with 5 photos to upload . The thing is I don't know what else to use other than Blogger , zz .

Anyway , Cousin's wedding day. Photos . Let my hair down finally but halfway through was regretting the decision cos it's a mess ! :(

On cab to Fish Farm cos we're taking an excursion bus there which means hell lots of alcohol for the adults too !

Ugly photos taken by Sis -.-

Lil cousin & elder bro .

Ridiculous hair , zz .

I love the white wine cos it's sweettt !

Cousin , one of them .

Home <3

Alright bye ! Gonna enjoy the rest of the holidays ! (:

Lousy morning

2009-10-16T10:12:00.002+08:00

Feeling quite lousy in the early morning because I barely slept . I'm gonna have driving later and I'm just not in the mood to go but I'd been skipping lessons since forever . Argh . Life just have to be miserable once in a while .

I have two wedding dinners to attend this month which is not really pleasant because I hate meeting people ! Basically I don't like to entertain people who are insignificant in my life and I'm just not sociable to a certain extent . Of course , if you're cute/pretty/kind I'll gladly be a friend . LOL . Simply put , I ostracise a certain type of incorrigible humans who will definitely appear during weddings/festives for unknown reasons . Perhaps this group of people just love to be the center of attraction too much and in a wrong way and it puts me off real bad .

Sighs . Furthermore I have nothing appropriate to wear despite having my wardrobe filled to the brim ..... overloaded in fact . I have tons of pretty heels though but I don't think I can decide which pair to wear . Tsk tsk . Girls .

I think what I need is to shed some weight for all the pretty things ... anyone care to share any effective ways ?

Out of my mind

2009-10-12T11:47:00.010+08:00

Today is a slow Monday at the farm .. totally ZZZ .

I'm feeling a little dejected because I have no money for a car -.- This is totally ridiculous because I havent even got my license .

However, I've come up with a seemingly good plan so that hopefully by the time I get my license , I'll have enough money .

My good plan is so far the most unfeasible then again the most realistic because that's the only thing my abilities allow me to achieve .

I plan to .... buy 4D every Wed , Sat , Sun .

And pray hard that the stock market improves .

However , if none works then I'll have to resort to the last underhand method which I solemnly swear never to divulge otherwise someone else might just beat me to it then I'll have nothing to my name .

-.-

I think I'll just continue driving the buggy .

I'm really damn bored because there are no cute kids in sight and no one to talk to .... Kel is in camp which makes me feel kinda lonely :(

Photos from my iPhone . Random . Some dated months back .

My room's tv . LOL -.-

Have anyone seen a weight like this ?

1000 kg !!! Guess how much it cost !

Lil catfish .

Kel when he still have hair . LOL !!

The hen laid egg !!!

Hugeeeee .

Taking it to the incubator . ROFL !!

Cousin !

LOL -.-

Playing spa fish .

Kel .

I just realised I can stretch and tilt the icons . LOL .

Thousands of lil turtle .

Ponding .

Eunice : " The BIG fish " . HAHAHAHA

Taken in TW by Kel .

My side desk ..

With lash extensions . Make me look pretty even without make up . LOL !

Taken today .

I'm starting to feel hungryyy because I havent eat lunch ! FOODDDDD !

Will hopefully update the crazy 12 hours long (7PM to 7 AM) birthday celebration of WJ & WH at the farm soon . I will also post the KTV session with B most probably tmr because I did not bring the camera cable today , zzz .

Okay , I really need food now !

TRIPP

2009-10-05T17:12:00.005+08:00

I compiled some photos and videos because I'm too lazy to upload them and stupid blogger had been showing me "Bad Request" the last few times I tried to load some photos .

Anyway , I had fun ! (: However , home is still the best . I was super homesick the last few days when I was there . LOL .

I wanna eat so much Singapore food now !! GOSH . Alright , nothing more to blog .

K bye .

-

2009-09-22T13:49:00.003+08:00

(I had been trying to get the first sentence of this post started but nothing sounds right ...)

Aye , I'm flying off this Sunday which is in 5 days !! I dont know if what I should be really feeling now because I'm plain tired ! I'd been reporting to the Farm almost everyday since school holidays except those days when I have driving . I havent been sleeping well too and I need more of the beauty sleep .

However , I'm looking forward to the good food and shopping !

I have tons of photos I would like to share but am too lazy to upload into my laptop . Speaking of which , I have not turn on my laptop for since school break .

Imma gonna do some work now and go help my Mummy cook dinner , yums !

BYE , I think I'll only blog after I come back from my trip which is around 2 weeks from now ^^

Brief Update

2009-09-11T11:01:00.000+08:00

Hello because I feel a little bit alien here and I think blogger had not been functioning well , I dont know .

Holidays had been well so far and I'd been spending my time doing some meaningful stuffs and waking at around 7 - 8 am EVERYDAY !! Yeah and that's how quickly I can adapt to different lifestyles :)

On 9/9/9 I went for my second driving lesson and I think I'd been doing good ^^ Later in the afternoon Kel&I met up with Cheng to shop around Orchard and bought birthday gifts for Lewis ! Returned to my house then cabbed to the farm to do some prawning and cut birthday cake with Lewis . Happy birthday Lewis !

The next day, went ICA building to renew Kel's passport then to AMK hub to eat and movie ! We watched Final Destination in 3D !! It was fab ! At first I was quite skeptical of the movie because in my subconscious mind , the story plot is just gore and deaths but I was blown away by the 3D effects ! It was much much much better than the Up cartoon and definitely worthy of my ten bucks . ROFL .

I cannot wait till 27 Oct because Cheng , Lewis , Kel&I are going to Taiwan ! Cheng and I had been procrastinating for the longest time about going overseas together . LOL . Kel is superrrrr excited to go and had been extremely hyped about the whole issue :)

However before I can finally go for the trip , I've tons to do but I'm gonna endure the 2 weeks of suffering because I'm soooooooooo going to Taiwan ! (think Swensen's advert) HAHAHAHA .

Alright I'm gonna get busy , bye (:

An entry for myself

2009-08-29T00:44:00.012+08:00

The first thing I need to say : It's holidays !!!! Woohoo !

It'd been fantastic thus far and hopefully it gets only better (:

Ktv pub with B and friends

On cab there . Been spending too much on cabs !

Photos taken by B .

Party world and dinner w B and Cheng & Lewis

Delicious bubble tea !!

LOL .

Semi-retarded face . Ha

3D Up with B

Well , my first 3D movie . LOL

Retarded !

The heart was the poster on the wall ! HA

Random

Yummy fruit salad !!

Permed my hair but most are at the front . LOL

Steamboat at home !!! (:

One of the messiest group photo ever !

Actually I have not much to say .. ??

Life's been good and I hope people whom I love are living well too ... actually just someone to be specific . I hope you'll do better . Let go of the past and just enjoy what you have in life instead of being negative over what you don't have .

Time for supperrrrr ! (:

Exam week

2009-08-16T16:37:00.000+08:00

This is one hell of a neglected space because I'm too occupied with other things which consist mainly of sleeping and munching food . I also realised the best way to curb my hunger pangs is to hibernate . My fat cells are multiplying at the most ridiculous rates ! I can gain like 3 to 4 kg in a weeks' time !!

:(

I had never been skinny in my life and I'm pretty sure I will never be .

Sleeping is also a good way to avoid studying because I keep telling myself I need to sleep more to have more energy to study later . It's always later but it doesnt happen . LOL . I had not even start on Market Research when the exam is just tomorrow ! Furthermore I'll be going out with family and friends for dinner later to celebrate Mummy's birthday in advance (:

Just what the hell am I gonna do for the 2 months holiday ?? Perhaps gain like 20 more kgs ? LOL .

I have countless photos to upload , maybe next time .

Diploma in Marketing

2009-08-06T21:33:00.000+08:00

THIS IS QUITE EXACTLY WHAT I LEARN IN SCHOOL !! HAHAHAHAHA

You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say, "I'm fantastic in bed." That's Direct Marketing.

You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl. One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you says, "He's fantastic in bed." That's Advertising.

You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl. You get up and straighten your tie, you walk up to her and pour her a drink. You open the door for her, pick up her bag after she drops it, offer her a ride, and then say, "By the way, I'm fantastic in bed." That's Public Relations.

You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl. She walks up to you and says, "I hear you're fantastic in bed." That's Brand Recognition.

Longest photo post ever !!

2009-07-29T01:34:00.014+08:00

I took FOREVER to upload all these photos !! I'm seriously too wide awake despite sleeping for like 3 hours last morning . My body is all tired but my mind is too freaking awake !!

I think this photo is hilarious ! We are so engrossed with the flowers !

Look at the pig behind !

Totally LOL .

Spoil my picture perfect moment !

I love this .

I suddenly have many hands .

I love this photo when it's in its full size .

On the cab to town .

Muffins deliciousssss .

I love this new cereal !!

Totally adore my hair !

The boy's camera skills ...

again ..

Hair loving !

Funny !

Sato , best class rep ever , me !

I look ridiculously drunk here which is impossible !

Kbox with Edwin and girlfriend . I have no idea how to spell her name . HA

Beautiful pair of hands .

LOL .

Yummy cookies . Eunice begged me for them !

I have not been attending lessons this week except going for presentations and the Mon was screwed up ! I have FOUR presentations this week .. CRAZY . That explains the lack of sleep and play .

Anyway me and B celebrated our one year anniversary some time back ! I also met Cheng yesterday .

Okay now I really have no idea what to write cos my trains of thoughts are going haywire . It's already past 3 AM now but I doubt I'm gonna sleep anytime soon cos I'm not going to school tomorrow .

Feeling like a total walking vampire now .

2009-07-23T00:17:00.004+08:00

Some time this week I was taught a really really precious lesson on the importance of setting and managing goals ..

The thing is I am not passionate about anything at all or at least nothing last long . I don't even have any goals in my life so how am I gonna achieve anything at all ?

As much motivated as I was, I felt double the disappointments .

Deep down I know I have got to be someone .

Question is .. who ?

animated us

2009-07-12T18:48:00.002+08:00

LOL !

Pics from the new camera

2009-07-12T17:11:00.004+08:00

Pictures again ! Taken by my new camera . I love it ! However B cannot stand the flash that's why his eyes are half opened . LOL

Without flash

I wanted to go Kbox today but I woke up at close to 4 PM .... Have to go grandma's place in the evening and wake up early for school tmr ! :(

I love sleeping when the sun rises !

-

2009-07-12T03:04:00.002+08:00

This is one of the reasons to love him .

the usuals

2009-07-12T02:09:00.006+08:00

As usual , bombarded by photos of me . I think everyone is sick of looking at me ! Bad news is I still have like few millions of photos in my photobooth I want to publish . LOL .

Yes and I seriously have nothing better to do other than camwhoring .

Went out w B today and we bought a camera so you can predict more pictures coming up .

I love bacon !!

In the bathroom

Living room . (Mirrors everywhere !!)

LOL

Photo without flash . See my fantastic phone camera !

With the cute yet not cute boy .

Okay bye but you guys should really check out my photobooth - SCARY !

Macbook again

2009-07-09T19:14:00.011+08:00

I'm so freaking addicted to my Macbook and iPhone ! Haha my internet connection and MioTv works perfectly too ! A lot of yays because I can stay at home for forever ! LOL -.-

My house has some renovation work going on now so it's damn noisy !! ZZZ .

More Photos from Mac ! HAHA some disturbing ones .

I uploaded only half of the pics only . LOL . Okay I'm gonna watch some movies now .

Kelvin Cai , You better watch out !

2009-07-08T17:46:00.007+08:00

Latest photos of me and Kel !

Anyway my internet connection and Mio Tv are installed !!! That gives me like 100 more reasons to stay at home .. LOL .

I can always give my kisses to someone else !

LOL !!!!!! I look like tranny !

Ok go check out my facebook and do my quiz ! Kel is getting freaked out by my quiz !! LOL .

Dreadful Day

2009-07-07T11:13:00.004+08:00

I cannot seem to get to school on time because I always miss the bus ! Damn . The super irritating tutor refuse to mark my attendance because I'm late for 18 mins .

I'm feeling so shag and I can hardly get use to waking up early and the constantly ringing of my alarm clocks .

Last night was real bad cos I was shivering even under two blankets . Must be Eunice spread the H1N1 to me already ...

I was walking into school compound today and I tried to avoid the temperature taking but there's this security who kept staring at me -.- So I wished I had a fever instead then I could had been sent home ..

Played with my photobooth ! I didn't know there are so many new backgrounds !

I look good as a clown !

I love snowflakes !

LOL .

Ok no more .

Just feeling a little miserable .

Our first neoprint !

2009-07-04T01:51:00.001+08:00

We went to watch Ice Age 3 today !!

He just pulled me into the shop and I hesitated cos it's like few years ago since I took a neoprint ! Still , I think I should be the one suggesting to do all these girly stuffs . Lol .

Anyway I really do have many photos I want to blog and many projects I seriously need to do . I want my internet connection !!

I love iced coffee w the Baileys caramel my brother gave me on my birthday :)

And I love my boy and my new house ! Haha . Goodnight .

dead inside

2009-07-01T18:38:00.002+08:00

Last Sun I went back to farm after going to Ikea .

See the goats . They are quite cute but smelly . Hahaha , they have name tags on their neck . Guess their names ......

One is Michael and the other ? Jackson .

-.-

I'm so bored at home . Luckily there's internet connection today . I did some e learning stuffs and project but I'm so not in the mood to accomplish any work .

Just want to post a photo of me . LOL cos I havent really put on full make up for the longest time (from what I remember) .

You dont know how it feels .

New phone !

2009-06-28T01:40:00.000+08:00

Well I really don't know what to do w my current phone because I love it !

The camera is relatively good and i'm getting addicted to this blogging thing that iPhone doesn't have .

Anyway the iPhone is sort of my birthday present from my mum on top of the cash ang pao . Hahaha

I hope my internet connection gets connected soon . Stupid singtel told us we have to wait for 3 weeks ! How ridiculous . Anyway my holidays are extended by one more week cos of H1N1 ! :)

I'm also going to take my first driving lesson and my FTT two weeks later .

Okay I'm just damn bored . Goodnight !

Saturday night at home !

2009-06-27T22:27:00.001+08:00

I never knew my phone have this function untill i happened to read the manual book . Lol .

I love money ! :)

2009-06-27T22:19:00.001+08:00

Just trying out the phone function .

I've MOVED !!!

2009-06-21T10:16:00.005+08:00

Hehehehe I'VE MOVED ! On 19/6/09 , good date :)

Alright some parts of the room, not fully done up yet .

I've already put up some paintings on the wall but havent took photos of it .

I'm so happily stealing some poor guy's internet connection now . HAHA .

MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING !

like wth

2009-06-17T14:17:00.001+08:00

I've got a goat at my house .....

Raving about holidays

2009-06-15T12:08:00.003+08:00

I'm so freaking glad it's holidays now and I enjoyed every minute of it so far !

On Fri I went steamboat at Bugis with Minami , Eunice , Ai Fang and Hui Ling . It was great ^^

Oh and the class gave me an advanced birthday cake on Thurs . Ha

After steamboat and shopping I went to Clarke Quay to meet Kelvin and we went to Berlini with his friends . I swear I had the feelings I was the youngest person in the club that night and I havent heard most of the songs there >.<

Went to Bedok 85 to eat with my stupid red face then home sweet home !

Went to clean up my new house on Sat then shopping with Mum , Sis and Younger Bro . Yesterday (Sun) I went shopping at Ikea with Kelvin and my Sis ^^ Evening time was celebration dinner for grandma at Novena .

How I wish I'm stick skinny instead .

Poor boy is currently sick ! Get well soon !

I hope my holidays get even better !

holidays

2009-06-12T12:02:00.003+08:00

It's is Friday again ! I'd never go to school on Friday this whole semester but I'm so gonna go today ...

WHY ?!?!?

Because it's term break from now !!!!!!!!

I'm so happy !!! And I'm moving next Mon ! And And my birthday is coming !!

All the reasons to smile .

Anyway what should I do for my birthday !?

I've got tons of friend I miss . I dreamt of them last night can ! :(

HK 2008

2009-06-06T17:03:00.008+08:00

You can guess how bored I am on a pretty .... warm Saturday . Sheesh ..

I'm too lazy to go out partially because of the heat outside but the main reason would be I do not think I have anyone to go out with me .

(Junjie and Jon just called me to go Powerhouse -.-)

BUT I'm still going to act emo for the sake of this entry . LOL .

Well, blame it on my anti-social character . I even closed down my Facebook, stopped using Friendster and stopped signing into MSN unless I need to .... and stopped checking my mails . I practically just stopped using any networking stuffs .

Reason being I got bored of everything .

I started reading books, vampire books and I love them ! I dreamt of becoming a vampire, fully armed and super sexy .... then I woke up .

-.- I cannot get anymore bored .

Anyway just wanna share some photos taken in HK / Macau last year .

Okay bye . Gonna watch Supernatural !

bored

2009-05-31T11:20:00.005+08:00

I dont even know what I'm busy with these days ....

I'm so bored at home on a Sunday !

Random pictures .

I did my nails ! I'm doing my nails damn often these days cos they are long and pretty now . Ha but they are really irritating ! I wonder how some girls can stand those exaggerated nails , zz .

Light purple base .

Spot the cutest boy ? LOL (Click to enlarge !)

At my unfurnished new house !!

My lash extension makes me look pretty all the time even when I'm sleeping ! Love it !

LOL photo .

I'm so bored ! There's nothing new to do in Singapore ! ZZ

-

2009-05-27T15:14:00.003+08:00

Recent activities of my body part :

"Eunice totally made my day by solving the connection problem of my Macbook with the school's internet! Love her to bits !" - Mouth

"That short Eunice forced me to credit her . Damn ...." - Head & Heart .

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2009-05-22T13:36:00.000+08:00

I went for only 3 hours of lessons this week .

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2009-05-21T00:13:00.003+08:00

Why does it feel so empty inside .

I guess people do get lost especially when walking down a path with no goals and no end in mind .

I'd learnt that when something goes wrong , everything thereafter just screws up .. somehow .

Stop stabbing .

sick

2009-05-19T14:37:00.003+08:00

I guess I like to be sick sometimes despite feeling terrible physically . It's an excuse for me to be vulnerable and be dependent on people around .

On the other hand , I want to get well soon cos the headache is killing me !

LOL .

Anyway , happy anniversary baby :)

You'd been the best .

Okay I'm gonna nurse the bugging headache .

Hopes are for stupid people .

2009-05-17T23:46:00.004+08:00

This is one of the moments I would like to grab a baseball bat and start destroying everything in sight .

The jealousy is consuming me bit by bit and instead of thinking of a logical way out of this mess , I'm feeling so angry at this unfair world .

I feel like stabbing myself so I can stop my heart from aching and from any other negative feelings taking control of me .

Why isn't there anyone to help me and why the hell am I so powerless to even help myself ? All I can do is curse and swear at everything inside my head , how pathetic.

Then again , what can I do even with power ? Bring someone back to life ?

Why is it life's becoming more difficult ?

Why am I the one stupidly doing all the shit jobs and always trying so hard to make things better yet I get nothing , not even a genuine thank you .

I don't even see myself harbouring any hopes already . I don't believe any charcoal black cloud has a fucking silver lining at all . I hate all the positive thoughts instilled in me since young cause now I realised they are all fucking untrue and I feel deceived .

I quit . I'm quiting this life .

Damn weather

2009-05-15T13:15:00.003+08:00

The weather these days are terrible ! In fact it had been terrible all along ..

It is one of the reasons why I refuse to go out in the day unless I really needed to . It's so bad to the extent I get frustrated easily and it just spoils my mood for the day . Damn weather .

I miss my outings with my boy cos both of us just hate to go out already . We'd rather stay home to play Restaurant City . LOL ! At least I can have my air-con on for 24 hrs . Well , thank the person who invented air-cons .

I hate going to school already because of the long journeys and the lectures and tutorials are crappy . I certainly do not have the time and energy to travel all the way there to play laptop games and sleep in lectures ... or whatever .

Anyway I had been wanting to know something BADLY .

You know lizards shed their jumpy tails sometimes to distract predators/whatever .. Have anyone ever wondered where do the tails go or what happens to them ?

When I was young and still living in the old farm , I remembered there will be many lizards on the ceiling .. and my cousins and I have a favorite game ...

We always compete to see who can shoot most number of lizards down !!!

Disgusting right . Most of the times only their wiggling tails will drop on the ground . I cannot understand my mentality at that point of time because I'm fucking terrified of lizards now . To remember shooting lizards was one of my favorite childhood game is a torture !

I did many other disgusting stuffs like digging earthworms from the soil with bare hands !! I loved to cut them into smaller pieces because I was told they will survive anyway . LOL .

I also loved to squeeze pregnant guppies so that I can see the little guppy babies come out from the mother's mouth .... I was told by my older cousins we have to manually do it otherwise the guppy babies will not come out okay !

Now I feel like slapping myself when I think of the past .... One thing for sure is I will never do anything of sort ever ! Fucking gross . I guess I'm having my retribution since now I have this unexplainable phobia for them .

I guess growing up in my kind of situation exposed me to many things not many kids would ever imagine doing .. So is it a blessing or what ?

Rockstar - Nickelback

2009-05-15T12:57:00.000+08:00

I like this !

With much love

2009-05-12T23:54:00.003+08:00

School these days . Tiring but fun !

It's good seeing classmates but lecturers and tutors give me headaches cos they all remembered my name too fast ! I suspect some conspiracy out there ...

Photos of me and Kel .

Movie night - Friday the 13th

Dinner at Pasir Ris Park w Mum and Sis yesterday .

Ok time to sleep now !

Not yet ! I met up w Cheng today , finally ! We went to do eyelash extensions and Cheng treated me to 18's Chef . Thanks ! Saw Lewis and WJ too . Meet up soon again !

Okay goodnight world ! Time for beauty sleep !

I love my boy !

Fucking bored .

2009-05-02T15:35:00.001+08:00

Shit , someone remind me to do my IPP report tmr !

I miss my boy ! He's too busy for me !

crying and throwing tantrum mood

2009-05-01T00:04:00.004+08:00

I've tried and I'd failed .

I dont even know what I am doing or even why the hell it becomes my responsibility to do anything at all .

I do not even know how should I feel . I guess this should be your forte , making me feeling so weak and feel so silly at times . How am I suppose to clear up the mess when I'd just made everything worst by throwing my temper on the people I love most ...

I have no idea why I get so easily hot tempered recently . Seriously it gets to the point I find myself scary even though most of the times I do not vent the anger out , I could feel it inside me still burning intensely even after many hours .

I just get angry at every slightest thing around me , those I didnt used to pay much attention to . Like say someone staring at me , in the past I would usually brush it aside but nowadays I feel so agitated I could actually just bash up the person .

Anyway the new school term was not really looked forward to and just when I thought things were better than I thought , someone just had to remind me of something and just fucking pissed me off all over again . Now I dread going to school when I think of all the mentally stupid hypocrites I would need to deal with (hopefully not) . I really do not understand how can anyone who lived for at least two decades discriminate another one without any apparent reason .

It's like telling me " My mummy told me not to make friends with only people who cannot score As in their studies ."

I think if it is true , then I think that person had better discriminate him/herself . I just despise people who suck ass .. now you are the dog of people with better grades (or whatever) then I guess in future you'll most probably be dogs of people with riches and fame .

Anyway this is not important .. the most important thing is I get freaking pissed at everything insignificant even when the matter does not even concerns me . I never remembered I was ever this bad tempered ever .

How I just wish sometimes I could have a shoulder to cry on .

I just hate how I throw my temper at everything and worst of all , implicate innocent people into my unreasonable fits . Sighs , believe me but I really feel guilty for my ridiculous actions and harsh words I spoke .

Now what ?

:(

2009-04-27T21:21:00.001+08:00

I LOST MY GUCCI LANYARD !!! :(

Nvm , another excuse to buy something new .